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Open Enough to Receive Big Changes

open enough to receive massive change

Woah it’s been a while since I last wrote, I don’t even know where to start.. I can’t believe we are already in the midst of autumn – my favourite season! And I wish I could say it’s been a light and easy time so far.. but this year truly seems like a year that was meant to cause a big shake up. It keeps bringing the most unexpected lessons to be learned, emotions to be released and outcomes that I have never dreamed of. I thought that the last spring brought me the most difficult time in my personal growth, leaving me with massive changes in my character and outlook on life; someone who I can’t fully recognise. But I think the last couple of months have topped it all. And yet – I feel incredibly grateful that I was open enough to receive these big changes once again.inhale some autumn magic morning sun woods

rainbow coloured spider web autumn woods

I’ve seen and felt a lot of people going through meltdowns recently, alongside big and difficult life changes. I felt like my life train had fallen off the tracks, and I was the only one trying to push it back on. The intensity all around was so overwhelming it became hard to pinpoint exactly what the issue was. My interest in the world, people and activities had completely disappeared and the responsibilities at work grew enormously. It felt as if there was no time to breathe, and I was drowning in my own exhaustion. When I finally realised that this was the product of a lack of self respect, I instantly booked some time off work and purely dedicated it to giving myself some love. I spent my days in nature, tuning into my surroundings and sitting with trees, collecting blackberries to make some cordial for winter and saying my goodbyes to the last dragonflies. I have to say, my soul is thanking me for it.sitting with trees open to receiving

autumn owl feather and pine

It is quite funny for me now to think about some realisations I came up with; like how despite me being such a naturally bubbly and excitable person, who loves and needs socialising, I had started really disliking people. I was convinced that this is just how I am – a bitter woman who prefers animals to humans, but.. I was so wrong for most of my life! Thankfully, now I see it to be a big, red warning sign instead. It was always a loud, screaming voice in my head that repeated the same words: “you need to disappear, leave all this humanity bullshit behind!”, but now I’m helping myself to learn and rephrase it to: “stop for a moment, breathe, be gentle with yourself, as you need some love!”. Oh god I needed it.. And I am so happy to have finally discovered this about myself! It is just so curious that we do not see or feel this fine line getting closer and closer to us, until it is almost too late. We fall back into old, self-destructive habits instead of giving ourselves some love! Sadly, many people would rather punish themselves than nurture their souls.open enough to receive big changes

I think it is really important to remember, that the time of growth is for growth alone, that there is no need to push yourself to be happy when you’re not, or productive when you are simply exhausted. Ironically, it only prolongs your journey rather than allowing you to achieve what is wanted. Sometimes all our bodies need is just a day spent in bed. If you can’t allow yourself that, there are so many other ways to relax completely, like taking a bath or a walk in nature. I really hope all of you beautiful people are taking proper care of yourselves in these intense times. Lots of love, Ursule


My name is Ursule Gaylard, I'm a 25 year old knitwear designer, photographer, blogger and nature lover. In 2010 I left my home in Lithuania and decided to move to a foreign country to try and find myself. I ended up in England, where I graduated in Photography and launched my knitwear business - 'Where Bears Go'. A few years have passed and I realised that there is so much more I wanted to express, and this is how this website was born. Within this personal magical place, all of my creativity, soul and dreams are stored. I live in Bath together with my wizard husband and two cats who just decided to appear in our lives. We all love midnight tea and conversations about metaphysical and strange things and I hope this blog will inspire you to enjoy life to a point where weird is the new normal! Welcome to my Wonderland!