Yesterday I had the privilege to be the part of something magical. I was really inspired by my cats earlier (as I mentioned in my previous post) that I just felt inclined to connect to other beings. I want you to understand – for a long time I rarely left the house, didn’t have many people entering my life and my incredible husband was and still is my very best friend. I am a bubbly person by nature and love making new friends but my self-neglect was cornering me as I watched all the doors slowly closing right in front of me. Now I understand that I was the one closing them; the fact that I made a choice to reach out to another soul was a HUGE step out of my comfort zone.
I contacted a photographer who was looking for artists to model for his photo shoot. The idea was to demonstrate something you love to do that brings you calm and focus through movement. I thought a lot about what gets me in that zen place before I reached out to him. I decided to take my spindle, some wool and participate in his project. I was curious how it would feel to look at myself from a different perspective – surrounded by a complete calmness, when I have always been a very sensitive and anxious person. I will talk about it all more once the project is finished and I can share some photographs, but for now I have to say that after it all I felt completely refreshed by making the first move and connecting. It felt as if for the first time in my life I was accepted and appreciated for who I am by a total stranger. His admiration for the skills I have developed made me appreciate that what I was doing could actually be interesting. No judgement, no expectations, just a very organic connection with two real people not trying to prove anything. That REALNESS left me feeling as if I could breathe again, and for the first time in a long time, trust people more.
Thanks to all the beautiful strangers entering our lives and reminding us of the light we forget we have.
And big thanks to you for all your support. Bear hugs, Ursule.